Crystal Fuckin' Clear

Ok...it's seriously time to get some shit straight. This entry is mostly for the benefit of Psycho Billy...since I know he likes to play stalker and know what's goin' on in my life and he reads this whenever he gets a chance....maybe it's time for Billy to move on with his life?

I don't know how difficult it is to grasp the concept that I simply don't love you anymore. I haven't loved you for about a year now...this last year has been a waste of my life as far as you're concerned. Yes...New Castle was a convenient situation, but no that wasn't the only reason I moved up there. I was sort of hoping things would fix themselves...they didn't because you're a lazy fuck and couldn't seem to help with the house until it was too damn late. You accuse me of using you...no. It just conveniently worked out that you took care of me financially...thanks for that. But sometimes things just don't work out. You are a fuckin' redneck and always will be. Your greatest ambition in life is to farm and have some woman to pop out six of your little redneck children...sorry dick, it ain't gonna be me. You really are pretty much worthless...and it serves me no purpose to keep you in my life right. Leaving you was the best thing I ever did for myself and I never will regret it...no matter how much you hope that I do have regrets later in life. The only regret will be that I stayed with you for so long. You seem to have such a hard time understanding that I am out, dating, having a fuckin' awesome time. I let you ruin my first two years of college because you wouldn't let me go out and do anything...worst decision ever.

And here's another point I'd like to clarify for you..since you were obviously too drunk (big surprise there) to understand logic the other night (not that logic ever worked your simple little mind). John is a great guy...yeah he works at Midas right now. He's going to school for pharmacology and business. You just kept repeating the other night that you couldn't understand how a mechanic was better than you...for some reason you couldn't comprehend that he's a student...just like I work at Auto Zone, but am going to school at the same time. You, on the other hand, didn't even graduate high school. It really doesn't take a genius (which clearly you are not) to put two and two together and realize why any sane woman would choose him over you.

I sort of feel like this entry is oozing with disdain...probably. But it's pretty damn accurate...