Pea Soup

I don't know how upset you
I thought things were going well
Then all of a sudden
You disappear.

It would be nice to know
Exactly what went wrong
You owe me that much
Just to let me know.

No...that isn't really supposed to a poem...it just seemed like the easiest way to say what I had to say without getting wordy or too detailed...I'm pretty sure the part for which it was intended will understand. I hope he does, I care a lot about him and would really like things to work out.

Ok, now on to other things...

"If you're gonna play the game boy, you gotta learn to play it right. You got to know when to hold 'em, know when to fold 'em. Know when to walk away and know when to run. You never count your money when you're sittin' at the table. There'll be time enough for countin' when the dealin's done." --'The Gambler' --Kenny Rogers (If you didn't know that, you should've)

That song just came on and I felt the need to share it...has to be on my top ten list of all-time favorite songs (Dueling Banjos is #1). I thought I was going to have something insightful to say along that line...but I guess not. I feel like a five year old with severe ADHD right now...I have a million things running through my mind and don't really know what half of them are right now!

Here's one though: I was thinking about fidelity and relationships and booty calls...and all the things that go along with that topic. For a lot of reasons, this has been a topic of discussion with a lot of people lately...so I need to vent a little.
My first group of thoughts results from some recent discussions at work about fidelity. One of the guys just recently got engaged, but during a discussion today revealed that he has cheated on the girl at least three times during the nine years they've been together. Maybe this is one of those areas in which men and women differ...but I could never have cheated on Kevin and not told him. So I'm not saying that I'm above cheating...in fact, I think I've cheated on pretty much anyone I've ever dated...but I don't see how you could go before God and your family and profess your undying love for someone if you are hiding so many secrets. How can you pledge to be truthful to someone if you can't stay faithful, or at least honest?
Only so much of the blame for a situation like that can be placed on the other woman. You have to ask yourself, what kind of man would do that to the woman he supposedly loves and wants to marry? Is it immaturity? cold feet? stupidity? vulnerability? loneliness?



OH MY GOD....my sister just came in....Brian proposed!!! I can not believe it! I am so happy for her