Impossible

I think I've finally reached a conclusion. I might actually be impossible to please. Nothing makes me happy and I am never satisfied with what I have. I'll always think I'm happy for a little while, then I get over it. I really think that it might just be that I'm too lazy to put effort into finding what will make me happy.

I really think being a circus freak might be the best option...how can you get bored with that?? I don't really have to fall in love...and I don't have to get a real job...and I don't ever have to let anyone get close to. I can travel from town to town with my ragtag band of fellow circus freaks...and they can be my only acquaintances. And since they're all freaks, I don't have to worry about relationships and all that shit...and I won't have to settle in any one place for longer than a few days...so no risk of developing attachments there.